Sunday, November 30, 2008

Starting Something

I started making a little something for the babies room a couple of weeks ago:



I’m now almost 33 weeks pregnant and have been on bed rest for a couple of weeks now. Nothing is really wrong but I’ve been having abnormal contractions so we’re just trying to keep that baby in there for a few more weeks.

So right when I thought I’d start trying to blog more regularly, I have nothing to talk about. Actually, I can probably speak at length about how there is nothing on television during the day, how it takes about 3 days to smoosh a couch cushion into an uncomfortable patty, and lots more that is totally irrelevant to this blog and just plain boring!

Pregnancy is not what I had expected at all. I believed that once I was pregnant I would go through the next nine months in total bliss. Worries would not worry me; stress would fall by the wayside. How could I be stressed when I was going to become a mom? That I was going to have my own little baby to take care of and love? But that is not what happened at all. I have many more worries now and the stress I feel can be near paralyzing. I’m confident that I am only experiencing the normal raging pregnancy hormones and – someday -- I’ll be fine. But it has been hard getting myself in the mood for hobbies even though they would have probably been therapeutic.

For baby #2, I plan on planning a bit better. Hopefully I can work the due date to be at a less stressful time of year. No major holidays, no bad weather. I’m sure there will still be anxieties but I hope I will be better prepared next time around.

I’m not sure where this blog is going to go. Hopefully it won’t go away. Maybe after all this turmoil, the baby will be good to me and let me enjoy some making time.

And hopefully he will wait in there a little longer. At least long enough for me to finish my little project for him.

6 comments:

Christina said...

I'm due the first week of January and I hear you on the timing! I hope you and babe are well and that the worry doesn't take up too much of your mind!!

jacquie said...

it's going to be great, jen. wishing you a smooth last few weeks!!

nancy said...

it is the hormones, and obviously abnormal contractions and enforced time being in your bed with no distractions don't help! being a mother is worrisome in a whole different way (not to freak you out!). your blog fans (like me!) will be here waiting when you're ready to blog again, so don't count it out if you need to take some blogging maternity leave until things straighten out! it took me 8 months after my babe was born to feel semi-normal again. hang in there!

Amy said...

I hope everything is going well. If your feet are still up there's a chick-lit book called bed rest that light just be your cup of tea.

ivyarts said...

The fact that you can even contemplate #2 at this point says that you can handle anything. Pregnancy can be hard. Parenting can be hard but it's really good too. Best wishes to you.

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duckyhouse said...

Haven't seen a post in a long while...wondering how you are doing?